I had a difficult night. I was emotional and it is because of the fact that I am very lonely here in Bangkok.
I ended up hurting a nice man with my harsh words. I wish I could undo it but the damage has been done. I felt my insides tense. I felt there was no goodness in me anymore.
Thanks a lot to Mark for spending some time with me on the phone. I know it is a lot of money to call Bangkok from Melbourne without a phone card.
Thanks also to Bob for keeping me company and for giving me some (over-the-counter) pills.